Done...

...with leechers
...negativity

Overdue Notice

Dear MCL (Mr.CUM LauDe),
I sit here and i think about us...and i love you....i know i over analyze things and i will break down a sentence to a tee...but thats just me. (thanks for your patience) i know sometimes i have my playful moments where i will be all over you like a brand new puppy you just brought home and you will get sooo mad because youare tryin to sleep....but one thing i do know is you still take it (thanks for being patient) there are times where we will plan on going somewhere and you will be like "meet me downstairs in 5 mins....and i come down 10 mins later (thanks for being patient)
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i know i can be an assjerkbitch and im not afraid to admit that...i always tell you that it takes a strong person to be with me....and you been doin a pretty good job for goin on 2yrs now...im always waiting on ya to f up becuz of past relationships....but i realize that its not in you...you are a good guy

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you are a best friend indeed...we have a love/hate/competitive relationship that just works....people on the outside looking end will never get us or why we put up with each other....heck sometimes we dont even know....but one thing is tru we are in our own lil world....we know each others thoughts and we finish each others sentences...

ilove to argue with you
ilove to joke with you
ilove to be with you
ilove to miss you
ilove the things we do
iloveyou

(ps i hope i dont regret this post)

the little things...

what things make you happy? for me its always the little things that stand out more than the larger...but when i think about it....is it the little things that bother me also? i think so.

...you can have one penny....but if you have many...they add up

The Little Things


still waiting on something sobeautiful....

...tru beauty...

Music Videos - Video Playlists - New Music

....i just want something sobeautiful....

Lost: sensE oF selF

You can lose your sense of self in many ways...before i entered this environment(college) i was living the simple life. this place is like biting from the forbiden fruit...you gain knowledge but somethings you can live w/o.
Gettimg wrapped up in "oh am i appealing enough for this guy....is my ass fat enough for that guy" F them/that DoYou "i gotta stay up on the latest trends" WHY? whose standard of dress are you living up to? F them/that DoYou "i want them to like me" for what? so you can conform to THEIR standards f them/that DoYou there are too many bitch ass sheeps in this world.... where are the leaders? since i was young i was told i was different and i must admit i was a slave of society....but im over that bullshit...i refuse to lose my sense of self///

its funny how boring mediocre so called normal people tend to follow the different ones.....how ironic :|

OUT STANDING = STANDING OUT (think about it)

F THEM...IMA DO Me

.:change...the cause of:.

change  /tʃeɪndʒ/ Show Spelled [cheynj
1.to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something) different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone: to change one's name; to change one's opinion; to change the course of history.

ever wonder why people or situations change? what causes change? at what point does one consider change?how do you decide whether it is for the good or bad?

{side/note} me knowing everything sucks....but would me being ignorant to the situation be better? i guess what you don't know doesnt kill ya....but what i do know kills me daily

Understanding Self

Pondering a lot of things...life and the existance thereof...its so complex yet so mind boggling. Over this past week I have run into so much insight.

un⋅der⋅stand⋅ing  /ˌʌndərˈstændɪŋ/
–noun
1.mental process of a person who comprehends; comprehension; personal interpretation:
2.intellectual faculties; intelligence; mind:
3.superior power of discernment; enlightened intelligence:
4.knowledge of or familiarity with a particular thing; skill in dealing with or handling something:

self  /sɛlf/
–noun
1.a person or thing referred to with respect to complete individuality: one's own self.
2.a person's nature, character, etc.: his better self.
3.personal interest.

...the key phrases that stick out to me are "superior power of discernment" and "respect to complete individuality"...so many these days like that...everyone wants to claim individualism but lack the power there of. i understand is harder to be yourself in a world that constantly wants you to conform this way and that. Sad Story.

I do have genuine love for those who are in tune with their "star player" :) and love to surround myself with them.