dollhouse

i stumbled across this video early today....i love the range of this girls voice....but the meaning of the song sums up my feelings i had of a past relationship. very happy im out of it now ya know...have a good day :)



i love the part when she says she is so glad she kept the reciept...i always keep the receipt...lol

SLideShow

so this video...


is by far one of my favorite songs....i know my life isnt over but yet just getting started....im so eagered and hungry about the possibilities out there that i want to excel in...i take it to the extreme im up sometimes late at night tryna think of new ways to achieve things....ima true believer in thinkin outside the box...yea i wanna give up but my heart won't let me....ive lost sight of somethings i thought were dreams but they werent dreams...but just an easy way out....i dont want the easy way out i want to make a difference in people lives i dont wanna go outta here just easing by...i fought to hard to allow nothing to become of it.

Lord i know this journey will be a lonely one but i'm willing to do this thing....ive already dropped so many people and feel like another season of cutting dead weight off is coming soon....catering to others does indeed hinder me....but Lord im ready to step into the blessings that were prophesied over my life....i always wondered why i go through things i go through... Lord you know my heart when my eyes are swollen from tears because sometimes i cant fathom why i go through the things i go through....why all the hurt Lord....why me...but Jesus felt the same way....i have to go through this in order to be the light for someone else...i thank you for finding me strong enough to be a vessel for you...

I realized some of the greatest people in history...took the 'road less traveled' alone.

so frusturated...

i feel like I'm in the land of mediocrity....someone save me...bored outta my mind...you ever feel like your mind just wastes away when its not stimulated....i feel like im wasting....i love music...the arts....technology....museums...zoo's anything trivial i love and crave it....thats the reason why i have 125 iq....i live and breath this stuff and it seems as if no one else does. i need to reside in a thriving city living and breathing with creativity and possibility...everyone wants to be boo'd up or shop all day or tv watch all day or sleep all day....what the hell...why? people always wonder why i have so much energy? well why dont you? people have stopped hanging out with me because i was so energetic....well take you half past dead ass somewhere and go wither away....i got ish to do...and im ready to do it!

...maintainin me..

Still focused on my plan at hand....its gonna take a lot of hard work but I'm willing to go thru it...a diamond has to go thru a lot before it can be put on display. Letting go of a dead end job to make room for things i have interest in. Not holding my dreams or myself back from what i finally want to do...and apparently others arent either. but i have grown so much during my college years that i thank GOD im not the naive person i used to be...nowadays you gotta have tough skin...and things bothering me becomes a silly memory of the past. new beginnings are in the near future...i just gotta make sure i dont bring old raggedy stuff into a beautiful place :)