Outta Place

all my life ive always felt outta place....like no one understood me. for these past couple holidays ive been alone and even when i try to hook up with other families i feel like im over staying my welcome...i dont feel comfortable...ive always felt lonely i try to open up to others and let them in but then i immediatly shut them out without even knowing im doin it...i really dont trust people at all...i dont know how to love and frankly dont want to...it hurts....i cry...now what? i dont have friends by choice...

De (racial) ilaztion = the new black or white!?

This is sad but yet our new reality....smh. I love my chocolate skin and i love whatever skin you are in. Don't change!

fuck you

lotta shit on my mind...and i keep reachin out to folk...i hate bein alone in this state of mind. i need people around me to keep my mind off of it. i get the usual oh it'll be ok and then they'll go back to their own lives and that just irks me even more. right now i just dont wanna be around anyone who doesnt want to be around me...i fuckin hate when people need me im there but i gotta beg for some type of comfort in my time of need....i fuckin hate this shit. i feel so by myself with this thing...when situations like this pop up madd emotions from other things still pending pop up. im really exhausted.