Someone like you...

adaptation

Looking over past post....you would think I'm all f'd up inside...its probably tru...oh well. I realize some stuff I really desire aren't provided in my current environment. Every surrounding provides something for the soul...my current place has brought on much maturity...I hate it yet love it at the same time. Ive connected with people that have stripped something i didnt need or nutured something that was dormit...

no more...

i dont think i have anymore to give...

Joy I'll always love you...I wish I could be there everyday with you...I'm sorry that I'm not...I know you'll be awesome...and like your mother says...dont grow up to be like me...be greater...

Alex...even though we hound you all the time about gettin ya grades up...I'm still proud of you regardless... dont get caught up with those girls...always remember to focus on you 1st. Keep God 1st ALWAYs. I love you

do you?

Ooh, youre searching for something I know, wont make you happy
Ooh, youre thirsting for something I know, wont make you happy
Ooh, you did it all again, you broke another skin
Its hard to believe this time, hard to believe
That my heart, my hearts an open door... See More
You got all you came for, baby
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your prides worth
Is bigger than the pain you got for it hurts
And out runs all of the sadness
Its terrifying, life, through the darkness
And Id do it all again, Id do it all again
Id do it all again, Id do it all again
You try sometimes but it wont stop
You got my heart and my heads lost, ooh yeah
Ive been burning down these candles for love, for love
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your pride
Ooh, someone to love, mm, someone to love
Someone to love
Ooh, youre searching for something I know, wont make you happy
Ooh

Dying...

im beyond exhausted...
everynight since i was 9 i pray that someone would love me...ever since neither parents wanted me and kicked me out age fuckin age 9 i always wanted some one to love me...i wanted someone to care and not lie to me...so i thought well if i show that love to others maybe they'll show it back....back everytime i did....i got kicked deeper and deeper into the ground...knowin no one gives a fuck about you doesnt make you stronger it just kills you slowly on the inside...

i dont want half ass love....i want 100% from the jump....why does it always have to be me that cares the most that gets done wrong the most....why would you want to hurt someone who loves you...why do you wanna hurt me...

all i have been is honest....from the beginning....i cared from the beginning....i loved from the beginning...Love will be the death of me

and yet another bitch...

you continue to make an ass of me.... I'm big on loyalty...but once its out the window....I don't trust ever again....I feel like I'm constantly putting myself out there...and then I tumble along some bullshit and you smile in my fuckin face like I don't know what is goin on.... I regre the day I took a chance on you ...I shoulda been like the rest of them and turned my back on you.

ever wonder if your opinion really ever counts? Or is it people just hearing you out in order to be politically correct...but really not giving 2 ish...I believe its the later

sooo...things are def different in our relationship...i love him whole heartily...its crazy when he is out or whatever im at total peace. When he is around im content...he makes me feel so good and loved. i know there will be bumps ahead but they'll come and go. we are are very resistant to ignorance....i understand him and i hope he gets me...i feel like an unofficial wife cleaning and cookin for him....im def trippin....lol...shake it off ATL....get it together.