realization...

...so i got another one of those itches i cant scratch.....and i ponder on it more when im alone....being alone with your thoughts is scary at times....but there is something about this itch and i haven't had one in awhile....but its different from the ones i had in the past....like something is missing....this thing isnt complete and this itch is nagging as helll to the point where it angers me at times...WHAT THE HELL IS IT...i dont know and thats what gets me....but then i think about it from another perspective and what if i do know but just dont want to accept it....maybe thats it...maybe im my own itch :/