Dying...

im beyond exhausted...
everynight since i was 9 i pray that someone would love me...ever since neither parents wanted me and kicked me out age fuckin age 9 i always wanted some one to love me...i wanted someone to care and not lie to me...so i thought well if i show that love to others maybe they'll show it back....back everytime i did....i got kicked deeper and deeper into the ground...knowin no one gives a fuck about you doesnt make you stronger it just kills you slowly on the inside...

i dont want half ass love....i want 100% from the jump....why does it always have to be me that cares the most that gets done wrong the most....why would you want to hurt someone who loves you...why do you wanna hurt me...

all i have been is honest....from the beginning....i cared from the beginning....i loved from the beginning...Love will be the death of me